Today is yet another day where I have not been able to get my legs into lotus while in Sirsasana. It’s a little strange, yet also not strange at all. I wonder if I subconsciously created this struggle to get out of being officially given Karandavasana.
You see, just over a week ago, I was able to easily get my legs into lotus. On observing, Mojdeh (my teacher) commented that I might be ready to start working on it while in Pincha Mayurasana. In my mind, I thought “NO! I am definitely NOT READY.” The next time I practiced, I couldn’t do it.
It kind of makes you wonder:
- Do we subconsciously set ourselves up for failure out of fear of success that would require more out of us?
- If we have done so, how do we undo the mess we created?